Video: Santander (a 40 minute improvised monologue)

I don’t really talk any more. To anyone. To myself. I simply haunt places where I feel haunted and sometimes express feeling here.

Breaking out of that habit on a brief, two day trip to the rain-sodden and windswept northern Spanish coast, I recorded the following improvised monologue where I explore my lack of a social life, mental illness, my experience with various treatments for mental illness, the death penalty, the need for prison abolition, tarot reading, tripping, shame, regret and how hard it is to exist when you don’t have a single shred of hope…

cw: mental illness, suicide ideation, substance use, weight gain, body image, etc (you could argue that it’s also anti-medicine in places, you could argue that it promotes the death penalty, etc… It’s very… ah… unrestrained…)

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scott manley hadley aka SOLID BALD live

Here’s a video of me recently performing at the prestigious (it has a Wikipedia page) comedy night, Quantum Leopard. Listen to how much fun the crowd is having. You could have that much fun, too!

Forthcoming gigs include the following – there may/will be others:

18th February 2026, 7.30pm: Laughable, Wanstead Library

26th February 2026: Mirth Control, Bexhill-on-Sea

12th March 2025: BALD PERSONALITY DISORDER 30 MIN WIP at Glasgow International Comedy Festival

26th March 2026, 7.30pm: Comedy @ Cosmic, Plymouth

May 2026: BALD PERSONALITY DISORDER FULL LENGTH WIP at the BRIGHTON FRINGE