Triumph of the Now is 10! lol whoops
ten years ago i started a blog instead of killing myself
Tag: mental health
Borne by Jeff VanderMeer
med free and hating life lol 😜
We Do This ‘Til We Free Us by Mariame Kaba
hope is a discipline, and I am undisciplined
A Dog’s Ransom by Patricia Highsmith
six weeks late, it’s the TotN CHRISTMAS SPECIAL 2021!
Frederik Pohl
read some terrible books that failed to distract me from anything
The Inheritance Trilogy by N.K. Jemisin
i move thru 2021 like a dying ghost
Not Really A Review of Not Really A Year
my year was deathly dull, which in 2020 counts as a good year
Notes on Four Books I Read Months Ago
notes on four books i read earlier in the year
Paying the Land by Joe Sacco
not a sacco sh*it
The Stone Sky by N. K. Jemisin
a fun book but not a real one, y’know
the cléo reader: 2013-2019
commencing unemployment and panicking about expertise
Talking to Strangers by Malcolm Gladwell
Who the f*ck is Malcolm Gladwell?
The Icarus Girl by Helen Oyeyemi
essentially a review of my new meds
the red and the black by stendhal
a stream of blogsciousness
Decreation by Anne Carson
was almost sectioned today; read a book that was difficult but perfect
Love, Pan-Fried by Gray Crosbie
great queer flash fiction from scotland
Hello I want to die please fix me by Anna Mehler Paperny
writing about depression
The Unauthorised Biography of Ezra Maas by Daniel James
the emotional cost of working in high end catering
Insane by Rainald Goetz
an intense, disconcerting, spectacular novel
My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness by Nagata Kabi
it’s good though it’s very optimistic
Ghosts of My Life by Mark Fisher
some over-hyped Gen Xey essays
The Tombs of Atuan by Ursula K. Le Guin
in the relentless cold I seek escape
Vibrator by Mari Akasaka
a great Japanese novel
Every Fox Is A Rabid Fox by Harry Gallon
death, dying, dead
The Return of the Soldier by Rebecca West
shellshock and amnesia and different kindsa love
Birthday Post: 30 Things I’ve Done, 30 Things I Haven’t
it’s my 30th birthday
Philosophical Toys by Susana Medina
sad man scotty writes about being sad
Sunshine by Melissa Lee-Houghton
this is impressive, i am depressive
Sad Farsi Love Poem by Abi Andrews
an effective exploration of white saviour complex
Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami
a deluge of hand jobs and suicides cannot save this
Bear by Marian Engel
simply the bestial
The Unmapped Country: Stories & Fragments by Ann Quin
Find out what Scott Manley Hadley has been reading and doing
Birthday Literary Suicide Tour
So I walk on towards deaths (plural) in the cooling twilight
Hold Tight by Jeffrey Boakye
i’m looking tired but feeling great
On Not Being Suicidal Anymore
I nearly get hit by a speeding car and realise I want to LIVE
#Breakdown: What happened to the blogging?
I have mental health problems
Home is on my Mind… by Sheena Rose
Review of a lo-fi art book and footnotes about depression
Raymond Chandler: The Detections of Totality by Fredric Jameson
A pointless book for pointless people.
On Urinals
How many men must a man urinate in front of before you can call him a man?
Ice by Anna Kavan
x, x, baby / you’re cold as x / didn’t have x cube so you bought vanilla x
Swinging the Maelstrom: A Critical Edition by Malcolm Lowry
Lunar Caustic is a lie.
Hillary Clinton Haiku by Vera G. Shaw
This isn’t a real review of a real book, IT’S SCOTT ON SOCIAL ANXIETY!!!
[sung] oooh, fellas: what’s ya dicksiiiize?
A 4 second Noise Piece and a link to more madness at the HuffPo
Save Me The Waltz by Zelda Fitzgerald
Once he had said, ‘If you want to choose, you must be a goddess.’ That was when she had wantedContinue Reading
The Trip to Echo Spring by Olivia Laing
I’m an abyss filling up with regret and alcohol at equal measure, like a really wet martini.
You Could Do Something Amazing With Your Life [You Are Raoul Moat] by Andrew Hankinson
My new puppy hasn’t been very well. I’ve spent the day taking him to the vets and watching him sleep,Continue Reading
Don Quixote by Miguel de Cervantes
Over the last month, Don Quixote has travelled a huge amount with me. He was with me for the tailContinue Reading
The Vegetarian by Han Kang
The Vegetarian by Han Kang is an odd book. I bought it for myself on my mad, wild, Foyles birthdayContinue Reading
Malcolm Lowry: Psalms and Songs (edited by Margerie Lowry
Psalms and Songs is an odd book, a collection of short stories by Malcolm Lowry (some previously published, others unfinished),Continue Reading
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